So to speak…? Approximately.
My To-Do list multiplies with each passing day. I’m not sleeping much (again), but this is normal pre-PCS behavior for me. From now until we move, almost every weekend of our life is booked. I mean for fucks sake, when can I pencil in a time to take a shit? Thoughts about this huge life change plague my mind, sometimes sending me into a dark existential crisis hole – i.e. How will we be able to watch the Chiefs play/new Game of Thrones episodes with this 13+ hour time difference?; What if somehow I messed up the paperwork for my cats and they get taken away from me at Customs?; Will I be able to use my Starbucks Gold Card over there?; and Can I still buy Cheez-Itz in Korea?
I hope you are picking up my bizarre sense of humor; nevertheless, there are still days (like, everyday) that I want to pull my hair out.
They say you know it’s time to PCS when you no longer see your location as an assignment, but rather as a home. Arizona, despite the hellish heat, has been such a rewarding place to live. I am finally used to the air burning my nostrils, the insane drivers, and budgeting for the price of drinks on a night out in Scottsdale. I’ve found an amazing hair dresser who makes me feel like a goddess every 6-9 weeks. We’ve taken up golf – I don’t think there’s anything more beautifully frustrating than scoring 6-9 over par (PER hole, we all were beginners once…?) with a view of mountains, green grass, and palm trees in sight. Add that cool breeze on a warm afternoon and it’s literally perfection.
That cover image for this blog post? That’s my backyard. My beautiful pool paradise – it has hosted parties aplenty, allowed for personal rejuvenation, and turned into my favorite reading “nook,” if you will. I am not sure if we will ever have a pool again, but it has hands-down been my favorite spot this past year.
Most of all though, I am going to miss our friends. The people who have become family, my free/on-call therapists, and my party-all-night squad with the motto we’ll sleep when we’re dead.
In times of stress, I often turn to Tolkien:
“Home is behind, the world ahead,
And there are many paths to tread
Through shadows to the edge of night,
Until the stars are all alight.
Then world behind and home ahead,
We’ll wander back and home to bed.
Mist and twilight, cloud and shade,
Away shall fade! Away shall fade!”
I keep reminding myself that this too shall pass – the stress, worry, and emotional roller coaster – a wild adventure is in sight. I am so excited to learn more of the Korean language/culture, hopefully find a job teaching English to little ones, go on vacations I never thought I would take, and experience moments I’ll always treasure.
Kisses & Kimchi,